sick

Current mood nauseated

I worked today.  I have been puking since friday and i got this stuff that makes me feel stoned.  I have been loopy all day.  I am NOT pregnant, though, so i guess it's all ok. good thing, too, since mike has been gone since feb.
I miss mike alot, but things are looking up here. the new people are pretty cool so far, but something tells me that i am going to be in the same situation that i was in with the last group.  I don't want to be in the position where i have to choose between my freinds and the people who are actually going to take care of me.  I get that it is really difficult for me to trust anyone, but when i actually do trust people, it takes a lot for me to see them as anything other than a friend or mentor to me.  whatever.  maybe that's the drugs talking.