i am soooo bored, why can't i sleep

Current mood:exhausted

I can't sleep.  I even tried lying in bed for three hours.  Staring at the ceiling.  Then i started to play on myspace, which is, i believe, the devil.  I am such the myspace addict. 

Yesterday i dreamed that dave and i were staying at his brother, Joe's house on some installation, while Joe moved from housing to some off-post place.  I don't know why Dave and I were roommates, but whatever.  I also had a dog and it had puppies.  One of the puppies was a Scotty.  Go figure. I so hate small dogs.  Then I did the "P" sign thing and Ervin looked, so i punched him right in the face, square in the middle.  Hollins laughed, so i punched him too. then he said good one.  Then i cried because i realized they were in my dream.  That depressed me all day today. 

I am soooo proud of my baby for graduating ALS. He's a SSgt now!  How cool is that?  I guess i really have to start working on that now.  LOL


I realized that there is some sort of freakish probability of going to both Rock am Ring and the Dining-in.  That weekend is soooo going to be awesome, but it's gonna be hell trying to stay awake for four days.  I haven't done that in a couple months.  Guess instead of taking uppers and downers, I'll just do the uppers....
  I still have to find out from Melissa why the sudden trip to Graf.

either way, i am sure it will definately be an adventure!

-g'night folks. 

PS shout out- happy birthday to Matt, and congrats, Grad!

C'est la vie! C'est vrais, mais pas bon. Oui, je suis amusante.

Current mood:ecstatic

i got a message from Sarah on facebook earlier.  She is graduating nursing school today.  That is cool, and i am so proud of her, because to be honest, i wasn't sure if she could do it or not, but i knew if she could, she'd be able to do anything.  I think this is like that one defining moment in her life that will give her any confidence to do anything she wants in life. 

I think i am a bad influence on Melissa.  Somehow she thought it'd be a good idea to drive to Nuremberg Friday afternoon, go to Rock am Ring, come back Saturday afternoon for the LRMC dining in, then immediately drive the four hours back to Nuremberg until the last concert on Monday morning, driving directly to work on Monday morning.  I am quite impressed at the enthusiasm to try to accomplish the impossible and based on my own crazy adventures, especially with Rachel, I do believe it can be done, but i have my reservations.  I mean, if any two people on earth can pull this one off, it would be the pair of us, but even this is pushing it. 

I talked to Dee today and it cleared a lot of things up for me.  A LOT of things.  I guess i was pushing away a little more than i thought.  I sort of felt bad on that one.  I invited them on the Paris trip, but i know they won't go.  I think that is the weekend he told me about.  Even if it's not, they flake out of everything, it seems like.  I get that you're married and like spending time together, but gee whiz, guys, you do have friends, don't you?  Remember them?  Just kidding.  Just missed y'all! 

Friday will be downtown day, exploring and sightseeing
Saturday will be museums and monuments and such finished up with a Parisian Pub crawl
Sunday will be more sight-seeing and such but with a fancy French dinner in a really nice restaurant.  I plan on footing the bill, so i am saving starting...NOW!  We are also Not staying in Joey's suggested Holiday inn-euro disney.  it's too far away and it's going to be packed.  We are staying in a nice hotel and it's going to be downtown and super nice!  I am so excited.  This time i will refresh the French thing before the trip. 

And I hope to God i don't come down on manpower in June.  Nor any of the other peeps on the list.  that'd suck.  Wards too.  oh well, C'est la vie!

Much Love, ~
Shayna

TDY from hell

Current mood:melancholy

I am getting so fed up.  Whenever I actually care about something, it completely backfires in my face.  when i don't care about anything, i am numb to my surroundings and it doesn't feel like disappointment. 

I was told this week that i should write a song called "Shut the Hell UP!"

The lyrics could go like this:

If you're driving my van and the radio's on
shut the hell up cuz it's my favorite song
i don't care about how you grew up f'd
So let me alone, and shut the hell up.


We stayed in Stuttgart at what must have been German for "The Bates Motel."  Nobody would do anything the day we got there so the night after the blood drive, we got a group together and went to the Fest.  After the Fest, we took the train back and i almost got arrested for assault.  I kicked a german dude in the ankle. 

I never did find Bob's niece that works up there.  I guess i will email them and tell them to get her to call me.  I have to find this lady so i can sort out all this crap. 

I am going to stab the next idiot who asks me if i am going to extend.  I am serious.  I hate this hell hole.  Mike and Brian and Brian are not idiots.  almost everybody else is a retard.  that, or they frustrate me soooo much that i can't see straight anyway. 

Taylor told me that i should get promoted so i can tell other e5's to shut up to their face, but i said i do that already.  I hate this place.

girlie quiz...the aweful truth

Current mood:apathetic

50 girl questions...answer them with the truth..

what color is the bra you have on?  pink and brown

Do you straighten your hair everyday?  no, well sometimes i de-frizz

Do you worry about the size of your boobs?  I have too much other crap to worry about!

What's your favorite girly magazine?  Cosmo!

Would you kill for chocolate?  no

Jeans or skirts? jeansDo you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?  yes

Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? did you ever hear of prom?

Would you leave the house without makeup on?:  to work

Do you consider making out "unladylike"?  define lady...

On a scale of 1-10, how fun is shopping?:  15

Are you spoiled?  sometimes... I've gotten better at spoiling myself

Do you think lip gloss is the best?:  yes.

Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?  nope i wait till it's on DVD

Do you yell a lot?  yup.

Do you wear sweatpants/pajama pants to school/work?  do scrubs count as PJ's?

Accessories make the outfit; true or false:  sometimes

do u like skater boys?  hells yea.

Is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?:  duh!

Lip gloss a must?: yeah!

current status?  in a relationship

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?  yes.

Do you often wish there was something you could change? often.

Gold or silver? white gold!

Do you dress up too much for holidays? sometimes

Do you like wearing dresses?  yes.  but like all great things, it is way more impressive if you don't do it that often.

Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?:  no but I write dirty limericks

On a scale of 1-10, how much do guys confuse you?  0-  thought process of a guy:  sex then food and then some sort of entertainment that involves one or both. 

What makeup could you not live w/ out? lip stuff.

heidelberg day 1

Current mood:sleepy

Today has been super-long.  We made it to Heidelberg alive!  My friend's dog is the cutest dog EVER.  Sorry, Prince, Turbo has you beat hands down. 
Her friends here are really super nice.  I like them and one of them is even from PA!

I got my asthma medicine this AM, so now I might be able to function. 

I miss my bed, sort of.  I have toy soldier-sheets. 

That's about it.  I am SO glad I am not at home this weekend.  Else, I would have been in trouble.  I know it.  I would be drunk and in trouble, and someone would have to take me home.  SO glad I am not home.... I am sleepy however and that has the same sort of effect as being drunk does. 

more quiz results....

Current mood:amused

How to make a Shayna

Ingredients: 5 parts competetiveness 5 parts crazyiness 5 parts ego

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!

say it ain't so, i will not go...work sucks, I know

Current mood:cheerful

Tomorrow will be awesome though, it is Shannon's party, and i am going on a "mini-vacation"  with a friend. 
Plus the sit. with the thing yesterday worked out, so i was relieved.  That helped a lot. 
Ping is done screening i think.  She is so nice, and i think with some minimal re-training, she can get it down. 
I had to fight really hard today to hold my tongue.  I nearly said something to someone that would have ended very badly for me and the other person.  The thing is they're above me and i want to tell them things, but they don't listen.  They say all these great things about themselves, and then completely ignore any input from other people.
Thank God I'll be away this weekend---no trips to Armstrong's, no BBQ's, no getting blown off by people, and NO DRAMA!!!!
I don't really mind my job, it's just not what and where i want to be when i grow up.

So I'm a whiny beeoch you say....

Current mood:numb

ha ha. well i guess that's true.  Today sucked.  I guess my friend was right: if you want something done, give it to an already busy person!  Because right now, i am still at work.  no kidding.  i took a break
I think my breaking point was when i finally lost it.  I was rolling bags in the back, after i reprinted some stickers, and listening to some music.  The song made me just lose it.  I am not a crier, but i guess between everything (friends who completely ignore me, other people who won't leave me alone, not sleeping in about 3 days, constantly filling out occurrence reports, I miss Mike,  my dog died, etc) i just hit my emotional rock bottom.  Sometimes it feels like no body's listening.  I have surpassed the point where i don't care anymore, about anything really. 
I actually have to go back to work but i really just wanted to say that I am sorry if i am coming off as whiny.  What i mean to convey is that i have nothing left...no sympathy, no stamina for my menial job, no desire to be here anymore.  Maybe leaving won't be as hard as i thought.  It hurts when I go to talk to someone to vent or about something serious and they blow me off.  I'll miss this place, and even some of the people in it, but I would be ready to leave tomorrow if I had orders.  I try to find out who i can count on, but they all leave me hanging.  I am done.  I don't have any more anything to invest. I give up.