So I'm a whiny beeoch you say....

Current mood:numb

ha ha. well i guess that's true.  Today sucked.  I guess my friend was right: if you want something done, give it to an already busy person!  Because right now, i am still at work.  no kidding.  i took a break
I think my breaking point was when i finally lost it.  I was rolling bags in the back, after i reprinted some stickers, and listening to some music.  The song made me just lose it.  I am not a crier, but i guess between everything (friends who completely ignore me, other people who won't leave me alone, not sleeping in about 3 days, constantly filling out occurrence reports, I miss Mike,  my dog died, etc) i just hit my emotional rock bottom.  Sometimes it feels like no body's listening.  I have surpassed the point where i don't care anymore, about anything really. 
I actually have to go back to work but i really just wanted to say that I am sorry if i am coming off as whiny.  What i mean to convey is that i have nothing left...no sympathy, no stamina for my menial job, no desire to be here anymore.  Maybe leaving won't be as hard as i thought.  It hurts when I go to talk to someone to vent or about something serious and they blow me off.  I'll miss this place, and even some of the people in it, but I would be ready to leave tomorrow if I had orders.  I try to find out who i can count on, but they all leave me hanging.  I am done.  I don't have any more anything to invest. I give up.