Vacation from my vacation!

Current mood:sleepy

Wow.  This trip has been amazing.  I forgot how much i missed old friends, and even made some new ones, but realized that even though i have a new home, i still have old friends too.  The people that once held my hand through the rough waters are still there, and i have now reached the place where i can be there for them as well.   I went to Ostend, Belgium, and the North Sea was beautiful.  I think i smoked a whole carton of cigarettes all at once, but it was pretty cool.  I got to make peace with my Special K, and told her how grateful i was that she was a huge part of my story and my life. I have made progress.  Getting to work on time for me is progress, but i have changed who i am from the inside out.  I still have millions of miles to go, but i am already a 180 from where and who i used to be.  It's not me, i am completely ok saying it was totally God.  Sometimes a miracle isn't as "burning bush" as we think it should be.  A friend this weekend reminded me how terrible of an idea it is for me to think.  I can feel, and express and reflect, but think? NOPE.  I love em and will miss em when i go.  Tonight i am staying with my second mom and i am so thankful that she's been such a great brick in the foundation of my history.  I want to give her a hug every day and tell her that i love her, even if i am an ocean away.
Special message: to everyone whose birthday, anniversary or whatever-date i missed: congratulations, happy birthday, and keep on doing what you're doing! 
More will be revealed...
-love shayna