Current mood:
awake
awake
I am so super excited to be home finally. I don't have to deal with the same crap i had to for way too long. i finally am going back to the job i love and the hobbies i miss so much. 
don't worry, though, I am still behaving well. Already found Rachel and went on a random road trip across the state line with my mom's hijacked car... it was pretty cool, to relive old times. "right or left... hurry up the road ends!" yeah reckless endangerment is always a blast, except now I am much more aware of the stupid things I do... I haven't been doing all of the things that i am supposed to do- something about muffins and Barbara f'ing bush!!! ask my Special K about that one...
I am taking this all alot harder than i thought i would. I miss them a lot and am also conflicted about how to do something else that i have been meaning to do for a while but have been putting off... i am such a procrastinator. I think that that is a really fancy name for Sloth, one of those danged 7 deadly ones.
I have, however made it through another day "successfully" and might i add, not of my own doing! My physical for my return to work was this morning, and i had to get another PPD, the Doc told me i had PTSD, and asked about one of the other questions i answered....the only one on the form that i was praying she wouldn't see. but she did, and i had to own up to it, hell i was surprised i even answered it honestly, but that's me now, rigorously honest-especially when my job and livelihood depend on it. Gotta go for now, it's about 0220 and I need some sleep.
I am meeting some friends at 8 am. No, that's not a joke. I can do it if I keep awake. OK- old behavior. I will go to bed. If anyone actually reads this, send me an email or something! I am curious to know who is reading this or not!
luv ya, Shayna
giddy
For almost all of you, I will miss you dearly and try my freaking best to stay in touch, (if you want), but then hell, half of you won't even read this anyway!