What can i say

Current mood:exhausted

 

Progress not perfection...that one is a tough cookie to swallow, but if you take it in small bites, it's good food for thought. 

i just totally made that crap up.
i am sooooooooo excited to go home. you have no freakin idea.  I miss my MHY folks and those heathens at York too. 
I suppose I have to re-think my manner of living when I come home, but it will be close to what I used to do at home-stay busy and one day at a time try to be the best me I can be and ask for God's will daily.
I really don't know what else I have now.  I will miss many friends here in germany, most of whom i just recently had the honor to meet.  I will undoubtedly miss my SPC K and many others, because they in part changed my life.  I tend to overcomplicate things, and someone very recently helped me to put all that crap into perspective by saying- "Stay in the moment, or you will waste the now worrying about the past or the future, which you have no control over."
I still don't know what i am doing this weekend, but i am sure whatever i do, i will both have a blast and feel guilty about not spending time with some person or another.  How egotistical of me to think that other people vie for my time!?!?!
Anyways, super grateful for today and I didn't do anything wrong.
-luv ya
shayna-on my 89th DOS

enough vacation already

Current mood:exhausted

Okay enough is enough.  My family is all driving me crazy.  I love them to death, but I have only been gone for....oh...whoops- a year and a half.  OK so i missed them.   Well, most of 'em anyway.  So far, I have gotten to visit with almost all the people that I missed the most.  I suppose that I will have to do a surprise-kind of visit to an Alma mater to catch up with the two that i have missed THE MOST! 
Did you ever get a message from someone that you'd not heard a thing from in years, literally?  I did yesterday, and it brought back some crazy memories.  Some things that i hadn't thought about in a while, and others that i think about all the time.

On another note, I hope Saul knows how much i hate running.  Today i was half finished-outside, nevertheless, and it began to pour.  PA is SO like Germany. 
I miss mike already and it's only been a day.  I really really miss Andre and Diana and Melissa and, well everyone.  Well not everyone!!!  
I can't wait to come home.  Or leave home.  Whatever.
L8R, SK8R
Shayna the Great