working

Current mood:peaceful

Wow.  Today I received an email back from someone from my past.  I thought that it would be a warm and fuzzy message, but as I have a lot of damage to fix, this situation may never be fully rectified.  That breaks my heart to the core.  I also have a new mission to figure some things out, one of which is something i have never really thought about until.... well never mind.  My friend Kathie always posed the question "when did you decide to be [you]?" as a retort to my once small-mindedness.  I believe whole hearted in a strong character and a gentle heart, but I don't know if i will ever have enough of either to be able to fix my situation.  I do miss them very much and am sad that they haven't been able to share recent things with me, I would have grown tremendously from that. 
Que sera, sera. 
I just have to work harder to make today a day whereby at the end of it I don't hold any regrets, resentments, and my side of the street is clean.

Peace and Love.